April 6, 2015
The Tarot Cards
This past weekend I had my tarot cards read. I'm fairly new to the experience, having only gone once before. A friend introduced me to my Tarot Muse. She's great - knows her cards and her stuff! I asked for a career spread. Here's the down and dirty:
Division and reintegration of self
When I was new to the world of work I was open and honest. My colleagues were “in” on my adventures and exploration. I enjoyed the support I received and felt nurtured by many mother hens. I felt free to be myself and acted accordingly.
I worked hard and I played hard.
At some point along the road, I'm not sure when, I decided being open left me too vulnerable. During a job transition I shifted more than just employment. I created two selves – one that showed up for work and an after-hours girl.
Maintaining the separation was challenging. I lost sight of who I was, as a whole person. I felt like I was always lacking – never fully embodying the person I was at my core. To protect myself, I destroyed myself.
The time for this separation is over.
As I transition into a Lovers year in the tarot, I am focusing on bringing these energies together.
I'm much stronger as a professional, skilled leader with a bit of a wild rebellious side than either the skilled timid or unruly wild woman I have been.
The lovers year is a perfect opportunity for me to bring about this meld as well as a great year to start my Year of Sex. Rather than throw all my eggs in one basket, I have a dedicated hen house to keep me in the throes of ecstasy for the year. I have decided to focus on the theme of sex as I explore myself, my abilities and my interests. At the end of this year my goal is to have written a sex themed book, prototyped a sex-related toy and of course created a unicorn* website, for those of you who can’t imagine a professional, strategic, female leader who can also be sexual, adventurous and exciting.
*A strange and rare girl, rather mystical